Will I really make it?

There are times when I worry, to myself, about what the future might hold for me and I don’t mean the simple kind of worry either; I mean the kind of worry that makes me truly wonder. Family’s always there, for sure, but I wonder if worry’s not something that the enemy does to draw me away from the Creator, weakening me or my faith in the process. I’ve come to realize that it’s more of an attack because it makes me think that I’m not good enough; what makes me recover from it is a good prayer or strong reading for sure. I end off by realizing that I’m not really good enough to begin with because I need a saviour…We all do. In these days of media blitz from the left, right & center, we’re constantly being shot at with threats that are real and we’ve all got to do at least a little proverbial looking up. Sometimes it helps to retreat a bit, but sometimes it helps to really reach out. Solace is a wonderful thing, especially when friends, true friends, are actually involved.
Like with everything else, friends are important and it pays to have a few good ones; I often wonder in this day & age at how easy it is to have a friend on a social network, but not in reality. Family is always important as well, but, to quote the old saying, home is where the heart is. We get so lost in all we do that we sometimes forget that life is more than a connect-the-dots sequence of events and we just let things pass us by that we should be pondering; we worry about ourselves more than what’s really healthy for us in the first place as a result. When it comes down to it, we, myself included, need to be able to stop & celebrate the little victories as well as the big ones with those around us, not give in to the media hype that surrounds & suffocates us.

- Sunrise Mist -
– Sunrise Mist –

The above shot was something I would have missed if I wasn’t celebrating the little victories; there was a sensor spot right in the middle of the upper portion of the sky which really ruined the initial shot for me. Other than that, the shot was near pitch perfect and there wasn’t much to really get all worked up about. All I had to do was refine the image and carefully remove the sensor spot, but if I was focused on being worried about it, I most likely would’ve dropped the image altogether. In life, it’s like that because we all see at least one little thing that gets us all worked up (I’m really prone to this) and we forget to slow it down and really examine what it is we’re going bonkers over. We can let worry define us, like I sometimes do, or realize that we’re all in need of a little faith in our lives that we will see the light of the end of the tunnel and not a freight train coming right at us.



I’m going to get flak on how I go about this, but I figure I’ll try it anyhow…When it comes to the holidays, we think that we’ll make peace on earth possible, but as long as we hold on to racial pride as the be-all-end-all, we’re going to be screwed. How so? It’s peace on earth for all, not just a select few races; we need to put aside racial hatred and come together for a Christmas that, for once, isn’t plagued by arguments over race. Think about it: if we forget about the colour of our skin for just one night or two, we might get past this stupidity that’s plagued us. I’m not saying that we should forget the racial injustices, but I’m saying that we stop fighting over it for once and learn to listen to what the holiday truly means. True peace on earth came through the boy child in the manger, and it wasn’t race-dependent…It was for all men & women.

Now to stop being so insistent for once, I’ve come to think of winter & Christmas as a time of warmth, even in colder climates. Why? Because we have friends to be with and many different people that make up our circle of friends & family that make it a warm time of year…Or at least we should have. For those in broken places, don’t forget to hold on to the fact that there’s people out there that care about us; we have groups like UGM, Salvation Army & others that feed the homeless and, I’ve got to say, they come in where & when others won’t. Nowadays, we like to define everything, labeling nearly just about every little thing, but once, just once, this Christmas, let’s stop labeling every little thing and focus on what’s really important.

There’s times when we want to just forget about the holidays and I’m personally thinking it’s because of all the rampant commercialism out there that’s being thrown at us; it’s tiring and a little too much. What really warms the heart at Christmas is being with friends & family, not fighting it out for the last item in stock at the stores. When it comes to how we celebrate Christmas, the best stories aren’t dependent on one culture or one really specific way of doing something, but the ways in which different cultures (European, North American, African, Asian, etc.) go about celebrating it together as well as in their own groups. So, have yourselves a Merry Christmas!

So, about that hangover…

When I really think about it, coming back from taking photographs and nothing turns out just the way I wanted it to, does that mean that I give up? Or if I come back with a headache/hangover and I don’t feel like doing it again, does that mean I give it up? In simple terms, nope. It’s basically like trying to recover from a hangover, or too much food (hence the term, food-baby); we don’t give up something altogether because it didn’t turn out good, we give it up if it physically & mentally hurts us too much (although drinking would be better to give it up completely if you’re prone to having too much).

When something puts us in a situation where we’re down, then seeking help from a sensible friend is always a good thing; and by sensible friend, I mean one that doesn’t cheer for the Saskatchewan Roughriders of the Canadian Football League (sorry, had to put that one in there as a joke). In all seriousness, working towards trying to find a solution often requires the help of a friend, or some kind of inspiration, to get over feeling down. It can be tough opening up, but sometimes, it just works better when you do because it let’s a close friend see what you’re going through and walk along with you so you don’t feel alone.

Christmas is a time to be with family & friends and it should be like that when you feeling down because it’s usually better to seek help instead of going it on your own (something I’m prone to do way to often). It can be an extremely lonely road and working it out all by yourself can lead to some conclusions that are either deceptive or completely wrong because you end up going down the path that is totally opposite of where you’re supposed to be. So have a good Christmas and remember to enjoy it with someone because it’s usually better that way!

Trying to find…

In all honesty, you can post as much you want to photo sites like 500px, flickr, Instagram or even FaceBook, but if you’re just looking for popularity, then these sites are just right. However, if you’re trying to find something real and people to help inspire you, then there’s more out there, especially blogs that aren’t superficial and can give you great ideas. The best thing is to have a mentor, or in in absence of that, some photographer/person that helps you along the way when you end up reading his/her stuff on the internet or in books; these people can walk beside you and help you along, but will not tell you to follow them, but help you to turn your focus upward.

Iron sharpens iron,
and one man sharpens another.
-Proverbs 27:17

The best thing is that if there is someone you can relate to, then you should be learning from them, preferably older & wiser, who has gone through similar issues that you are going through; this is really important because it can help you stay grounded and get through the bad times and the good. I’ve gone through it for a period of about 5-10 months and I can positively say that it’s one of the best decisions I’ve made in a long time. There’s ups & downs in life and having a friend/mentor who can walk with you through it is definitely worth it.

Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art…It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival.
-C. S. Lewis

So if you’re trying to find something worthwhile, whether if be in art or life in general, find a friend and someone who can help you through things and you can then learn together. In photography, nothing beats a friend who’ll be there with you and helping you get those shots or you helping him/her get those shots. You can’t really go through photography & life without a friend to stick with you through it, someone who doesn’t mind being just as dumb at times and just as smart at other times.